emo abt my house

It's always emo when come to my melaka house. It's our 1st house, we married and we move in, we live together since 2006. Our 1st & 2nd baby was born here, the joy and all the happiness is always related to this house. Too many great memories. I just love it.

It's our 1st house, we brought it lelong. We went thru all the hard time to survey all the bank loans interest rate. OF cos, not forgetting the forever "alien" legal documents that we keep signing on every page. Our close friends help us to paint the house. There is a friend promise to help us to paint the kitchen when he is on leave, i just pass him the keys and he start paint it alone while we are working during office hour. He is suppose to on-leave... i will always remember you... my friend... i know who you are... i remember... I remember i goto the house to install the lights and the fans during lunch hour. We had a nap there during lunch hour with no bed or mattress. I have been away for too long till i kenot rmb when... eventhough i go back melaka for wedding shoot during some of the weekends, i don't go back to my house, simply becos my wife and kids are at in-law's house.

Last week, i manage to go back to my own house for few hours... all out of sudden, the happy moments playing in my head. I didn't know i missed my house so much. I love it becos it brings me all the happiness. Now, we are like a nomad, living here and there, things are not belong to us, spaces not belong to us... things just cannot go our ways. It's just so heartache sometimes, really! I wish we can have our life's back, where, we have our own space, the kids playing in their FORT without concerning breaking things, messed up the places, child safe environment, dancing in the living hall, watching the TVs, eat routine, play routine, sleep routine... at least... i do my best to control it to the lowest level at my melaka house.

God, pls give me strength to hold on, patience with the legal works which i believe on going... i have faith in my solicitor, she is doing a fantastic job.

who am i?

Sometimes i wonder, who am i? i don't laugh like wat i use to do, i don't play wat i like, i was so passive nowadays. It always pop up in my head "who am i"

i am a son, --> ever love me alot parents hope to see me everyday
i am a husband, --> a lovely lady waiting for me at home
i am a father, --> 2 kids waiting for me at home
i am a businessman, --> i carry a big debt
i am a engineer, --> i report and think solution for all the problems occur in my shop
i am a technician, --> i fix my machine or watever break down in my shop
i am a cashier, --> i cash in and cash out
i am a shop assistant, --> i did photostat
i am a graphic designer, --> i did all promotion flyers, promotional items
i am a display artist, --> i decide wat to display in my shop
i am a runner, --> i do all my license/gov process
i am a finance controller, --> i control my budget
i am a planner, --> i plan my shop's future
i am a negotiator, --> i negotiate in everything
i am a real estate agent, --> i help my parent's to manage their property
i am a project manager, --> i plan wat promotion or event for my shop
i am a editor, --> i edit photos
i am a salesman, --> i sell cameras and accessories
i am a service provider, --> i develop photos
i am a IT specialist, the foreign workers come and ask me abt computer stuff
i am a typist, --> i help client to type their document
i am a photographer, --> i take nice photos
with this...

i can be a beautician, --> i can make ur pimples gone
i can be a beauty consultant, --> i can tell how is your skin
i can be a make up artist, --> i can make you look beautiful
i can be a weight control consultant, --> i can make you look slim or fat
i can be a magician, --> i can make things disappear or appear, ur eyes from shut to open

sometimes i wonder how can an ordinary people can be so multitasking?

been a long long time since my last post. things are routine for me... no more chance to eating out good food. no more posting on good food lorrr...

been working on photos photos and photos... life is boring without 3 of them near me... it gets even more depress if things aren't going smoothly. the giggles from the kids can only hear and see via internet cannot help me to forget those unhappiness...

but not for this weekend. i m here with my family. the giggle is making me feel so so good! i have been working more than 13hours with only 3hours of sleep on day b4. tired! but when holding jboy n mboy in my arm is just... fantastic! i tahan few hours longer. ah dear asked me "u not tired meh?" "its gone..." (cos i could see n feel u all now... nothing else matter!) i went to bed real early yesday, i sleep equally the hours i worked! head out to shopping early in the morning... felt extremely happy! they are just fantastic, my inspiration, my energy, my strength... i just hope i can bring u guys near to me so damn soon... pls...

p/s: i point at some picture of cat dog dolphin etc... jboy could actually reply it correctly... seeing him growing well, i m a very proud father!!! i always imagine, how could these 2 boys running around, playing together in our new house...